What and how I feel for being 34

More than I wish for!!! Or… should I say, so deeply grateful!!!

First of all, I think that is the right sentence to describe the title of my post today. Nothing in my wildest dream I ever thought that I will be standing here with some dreams in my hands and surrounding by so much love and care. There are still lots of dreams for me to catch but hey… today is different!!!

Secondly, I was so amazed by the love I received from my loved ones, families, brothers, sisters and friends. They took a couple of minutes of their busy time to write a simple yet beautiful words to me and those words made me speechless… touched my heart. It brought tears in my eyes when I arrived home, sat down and found line by line full of wishes for me in my special day. Who am I deserve this kind of love and care? This was the question to myself. No words can describe what I felt today, more than grateful, more than happy, more than joy… more than everything, two words kept coming out from my mouth ‘THANK YOU’.  I haven’t been able to give my best to them but one thing for sure… I’ll be better! I thanked them for growing up with me and accepting me as the way I am, an imperfect human being.  I thanked them for making my day become so special and full of smile all over my face.

Looking back a year ago, I realized that I am a better person now with some of my dreams in my hands. Last year, I was no one… an ordinary gymnasium student who tried to take step by step of my journey with hope, faith, fight and believe. I am still a dream catcher and I’ll always be but there are couples of dreams that I managed to make them come true. There are many lessons in life I understand more now from the previous year experience, a sentence about… It doesn’t mean to be!

Last year, I got rejection when I tried to apply as a university student. But it didn’t break me at all. I took another gymnasium subjects such as Photography B, History A, Web design and Spanish step 1. Through photography B I got a deeper understanding about technique in photoshop, studio and lighting. I got a chance to do my photo exhibition in Åsö gymnasium despite the fact that the exhibition actually for student in Photography C. In the beginning of this year… I harvested of my hard work, Åsö bought one of my photo which was hanging in school’s corridor. I was so thrilled to find the news and deep down… I thanked God for everything, for every single thing that God gave me… obstacles and challenges because from those I learned the most. If I didn’t get any rejection from the university I might not have a better skill in photography skill. It will be beautiful in the right time as it said🙂 Another good news… I am able to put myself outside my comfort zone and being a student in Stockholm University in early 2011 after have been living in this country for 3 years.

Well… my duties is not stop here. There are still loads of mountains to climb, many roads to pass through, many challenges to finish and thousand lesson need to be learned. I am more than ready… to become a better person, a better human being!

I might lost one year of my life to enjoy this amazing world but here I am… in my 34th birthday, I create new dreams and catch even more…

Stockholm, dym 310311

About dema1497

A Balinese who is currently living in Stockholm, Sweden. I love to write almost about everything and it helps me to understand more about myself and life.I love traveling, where I can learn a lot about other cultures, I love reading where I can improve my languages skill and learn about others through their works, and photography is one of my passions where I learn to understand nature deeper. I am a dream catcher... and will always be! Thank you for stopping by and hope you enjoy to read my posts. Take care
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