There are a couple of dreams that I haven’t able to catch when 2012 is almost over, and I decided to start on Christmas! It has been a quite interesting journey this year, with lots of ups and downs, not to forget laughter and tears. Sometimes my heart is broken but I’ve learned how to put my spirit back and continue to fight. Many times, I found myself in the corner, talk to a little girl inside me and took a short break from everything before I continue my step on the road again. Now, I am more than ready to continue to a new journey, a new year with new challenges that I’m sure will teach me to become a better me. To fight dreams that I almost in my hand before it is gone (again) before my eyes!
I start on Christmas, as new years is just in the corner. Being able to attend the last service in the church close to my in laws’ house is something that I am so grateful for. There were more than one thing that tried to stop me from going, the snowy weather, the coldness of the air, the laziness and the thought of put a layers of clothes to keep me warm but none of them succeed to make me stay at home. I’m glad that I pushed myself harder than before, because I realize that I might missing something special this year, I wasn’t wrong! The service was special and I almost wept in church on Christmas’ eve. One of the reason why I start my next journey on Christmas.
God challenged me a lot before Christmas, HE hasn’t allow me yet to have my biggest dream but HE replaces it with something that now I understand the purpose behind the replacement. I admitted it broke me for a couple of hours but I was lucky to have someone who always there for me, to take my hands and comfort me in his arm, someone who complete me in many different ways, my P! The more I search the answer, the more I understand that there is always a reason behind HIS decision. I just need to learn more how to handle myself in the future to be able to understand it sooner. Still I am just an imperfect human being who has thousand things to learn, to shape this life even better.
Love, one thing that tight us closer and closer every single day! I can’t imagine how live would be without love, without the ability that love brings… ability to give and take! Love teaches me about value of life, about dreams, about patient, about hope. It is love that keeps me going, never give up or to be able to stop and take a deep breath every time I am in the lowest point of my life. Love, something that you can really see with your eyes but if you willing to open your heart, you will feel the power of it. I’m amazed about what love could give to us, the impact of it, the lesson from it and the warm feeling every time the act of love touch your very own heart.
I’ll do my best to be as good as I can be when I start my new chapter in life, so Santa would come visit me next year and celebrate with me dreams that I have and I’m able to reach. I am still a dream catcher and even with bigger dreams in the new year! I don’t know if I could start now but… I have decided and no matter what happen, I put my first step on Christmas!
Stockholm, dym 25122012